Fashion//clothing: Beth Ditto for Evans

Me being a size or two(or three, depending on the store) bigger than what regular clothes go up to makes clothes a difficult topic for me. I feel so terrible when I walk into stores and have to go to the section called "Big is Beautiful" or "XLNT" or "Generous" it feels so wrong, but I have to do it, and I have to walk into stores that mainly sell clothes targeted at women 40+. Sometimes I just can't do it. The option of shopping online is always there, but living in Europe, and Norway, makes it all so difficult. Shipping from the US is insane, and then I have to pay taxes on anything above a certain sum, which sucks too. I simply can't afford it and I miss out on so many pieces of clothing. However, I do shop a little from British evans. Shipping from Britain isn't too expensive and they have okay clothes. I buy lots of stuff from British online stores(but only clothes from evans)

Evans had Beth Ditto do a line of design some years ago, and I didn't shop that, because it was just about then that I discovered evans when I was on a trip to London. Evans invited her back and this time I'm drooling over some items, but I'm not all that crazy about most of them, but there might be a few dresses that I'd love to try on!

This black and ivory spot dress is one of them. It's a bit short for my liking, but the epic dots make up for it, also the length of the arms are perfect! I never wear too short sleeves. The waist is also good, just under my boobs! which is where I'm slimmest(the curse of being fat!). The other dress that I'm thinking about hasn't been released online yet, but if you see the picture above the dress it's the one Beth is wearing on the picture all the way to the right.

Ps. I made the label fashion now, so I guess that means that I will be talking about that quite a bit. I am in the process of trying out new stuff and expanding my very limited wardrobe. I'm inviting you along for the ride. It's going to get messy as I'll probably fail at finding things that actually look god on me.

Overambitious

Whenever I start a new blog I have these crazy ideas about how I'll make it perfect and become a real blog queen, but that never happens. Why? Because I think that I'll get to where I'm going immediately(it's a little like it is with starting to try and lose weight) I get lazy and give up. I tell myself that I won't get readers, I'm not creative enough, It is a waste of the creative energy I've got, I can't make it happen. All of this is wrong, because I know I can, and a good blog is never a waste. Okay, so my goal in life is not being a professional blogger, but it's a nice hobby. I'm going to uni on Monday and I bet I'll have lots of time to blog in between everything else. I need study breaks and I need fun.

Another problem is what will I fill this little blog with, my home on the Internet. The first things that pop into my head are; popular culture(music, movies, books and comics), fashion, life, beauty & positivity. I am not a person with a message or a way of thinking that I want to get across to the world, or am I? You see, I'd love for everyone to chill out, take the middle road and focus on the positive. I take the negative route so easily, and I suffer from anxiety that makes being positive even harder, but I decided to be happy anyway and most of the time it works. I don't cry myself to sleep every night anymore. I'm becoming better, and I want to share that with everyone.

There is plenty to tap into, I'm into gender-issues, size-issues(I'm fat), welfare-issues, class-issues & the big scary environment-issues. So I don't have to be all brain dead either. It's just so difficult deciding on what I should choose to write about and what I should leave behind. I could have themed days, with alliterations in the titles. "Tired Thursday" "Fashion Friday" & then stick to the rules. I don't know.
Need more time.

We are all innocent

One day you'll have to let it go

Lately I've been revisiting my teen years, I don't know if it's the fear of growing up, or grief over emotions I no longer feel(I cry, but the emotions are phony). My main way of revisiting them is through pop-culture. I listen to our lady peace, placebo, muse(who I saw live a few weeks ago), Pixies' Where is my mind, My Chemical Romance, Green Day & the Clash. I watch Fight Club, Donnie Darko, Imaginary Heroes, Kill Bill vol 1, Grind, Buffy(TV-show, of course), the Breakfast Club, Supernatural, Gilmore Girls. Veronica Mars. & it blows my mind.

Then I watch, & listen to, stuff I didn't really have on repeat. The Horrors. The Beatles. Doctor Who. Janis Joplin. Little Miss Sunshine. Belle & Sebastian. & I can still feel it.

It was horrible when it went on, but I just want to be able to feel that strongly again. I realize that my not caring about anything anymore isn't all it's cracked up to be and I wish I didn't spend so many years having that as my main goal. I still cry as much as I did back then, but I live in a weird bubble. The bad kind of bubble. I never find anything new to love, fangirl over & remember. I think I need it.

Reinvent yourself

This post marks my internet reinvention. Not really. I've just moved. New url and empty archives. I felt like I needed it. My old blog is still there. I just won't use it anymore. The list of reasons I have for moving is long and I won't share, but wanting to be more honest is one of the reasons.

I will write about myself & everything that interests me. I'm going to be positive and show you what I'm thinking of, what I'm doing and hopefully I will be able to keep a decent personal blog that might just be focused on stuff that you could call pop-cultural.

Oh and my name is Kiwie. I'm lying, it's just a nickname, but I like it so there. I'm no longer namelsess Sheena, but I am still faceless(not for long though!).

See you around^^